RAMADAN WILL BE DIFFERENT

 MY DEAR BROTHERS AND SISTERS

here we are again, Ramadan coming 

and I'm sure last year in the same position 

WITH THE SAME THOUGHTS

here we are again 

RAMADAN IS COMING

this Ramadan I'll do it, this Ramadan I'm going

TO CHANGE, IT'S GONNA BE THIS ONE

and yet here you we are again today

LISTENING TO THIS AND SAYING, MY GOD

wasn't I just thinking the same thing last year

yet did I really change...? NOT SO MUCH

and a lot of us feel sad, we feel sometimes 

DEPRESSED, WHY AM I NOT CHANGING..?

why am I not able to finally make that 

one year where I'm just changing forever

WHY..? I KEEP HEARING THE LECTURES

that one of the indications of acceptance of Ramadan 

IS THAT YOU CHANGE AFTER RAMADAN, YET I DIDN'T CHANGE

or I changed for 1 month 2 months 

AND I GO BACK TO WHERE IS WAS

why can't I finally change

ONCE AND FOREVER...?

for good I wanna change, I'm tired of myself 

I'm TIRED OF HOW I FEEL

I'm tired to always just drag myself

AND JUST MAKE THE BARE MINIMUM

and I'm tired I want to be saved, I want to be better 

I WANT TO BE A GOOD MUSLIM

but here I am again, waiting to count 

 THE DAYS TO RAMADAN

and afraid, that Ramadan is going to go, I'm going 

FEEL VERY GOOD I KNOW  IN SHA ALLAH YA RABB

that I'm going to do well in Ramadan, I'm going to fast 

I'm GOING FEEL GOOD, MY IMAN IS GOING TO BE HIGH

yet I'm going to be scared as soon as 

I REACH THE LAST 10 DAYS 

and towards the last 10 days that that's it you know 

WHAT I MEAN, I'M GOING TO LOSE IT 

what am I gonna do..?

LIKE I'm GONNA BE DONE

again I'm gonna go back to the same position 

THAT I WAS BEFORE, WISHING

 for another Ramadan, and just wishing that in sha Allah

I CHANGE, BUT I CAN'T CHANGE

 WHY SHOULD I FEEL BAD...? 

what should I do..? I'm depressed 

I AM DEPRESSED 

I'm depressed because of my sins, the darkness 

OF MY SINS IS OVERTAKING ME

I'm tired I'm tired I'm very very tired

I'm LOSING HOPE

I'm losing hope, what should I do..?

 allah (s.w.t) tells us in surah

AZ-ZUMAR VERSE 53

say o  my servants who have transgressed against

 themselves by sinning, do not despair of the mercy of Allah

do not despair of the mercy of Allah, indeed Allah 

FORGIVES ALL SINS, INDEED IT IS HE

who is the forgiving, THE MERCIFUL

I'm here to tell you 

DON'T LOSE HOPE

 I don't know how many Ramadans

YOU'VE HAS BEEN IN THE POSITION

LOSING HOPE

all I'm telling you, that never lose hope 

ALLAH IS TELLING YOU

THAT HE WILL FORGIVE

DON'T LOSE HOPE     

so yes you are in this position again and you

 might be in this position next year, and the year after

and how many Ramadans Allah (s.w.t) will give you

 in sha Allah till the rest of our lives, we experience Ramadan

BUT WE'LL REMEMBER  

whoever fasts Ramadan with firm faith and conviction

ALLAH WILL FORGIVE THEIR SINS

same thing whoever fasts, whoever prays Ramadan 

Allah will forgive their sins, all you have to do  

is have faith and firm conviction

JUST BELIEVE  

just live today, you are here today

RAMADAN IS IN FRONT OF YOU

what past, cannot be changed 

what happens or comes you don't know 

you have no control over, today

you're welcoming Ramadan today

with an open heart, remembering 

that you don't lose hope in Allah

EVERY DAY IS HOPE

every minute is hope every second is hope

 Islam is hope this is how we live

take it one day at a time 

don't let the shaytan makes you 

lose hope have hope "YA IBADI" oh my servant my slave

who has transgressed against him or herself

do not despair of Allah's mercy

alhamdulillah, welcome ramadan

welcome I will not despair of the mercy of Allah

I will do it as if the first time in sha Allah in sha Allah...